So, I said I was going to walk to the bank, right? Yeah…my bank doesn’t exist here. Or anywhere in California for that matter. So I am breaking my own rule of not using the CC this summer until the direct depost kicks in, which sucks. So I will owe my parents even more money when I get home…fantastic! Sigh. Anyway, that was an adventure in itself, trying to find the bank and realizing the streets I was looking for didn’t exist and then being in a super shady part of town… Yeah. But then I went to Ralph’s and my friends picked me up there, after a super shady lady (?) sat down next to me missing all her front teeth and drinking a bottle of beer in the Ralph’s parking lot. Shadiest. Thing. Ever.
But then we went shopping, because I desperately need pants. (Note that that is still in the present tense.) We went to like one store. I hate shopping with other people. I do not shop like a girl at all, so shopping with girls is rather frustrating. But oh well. The camaraderie was fun. And the boys came along too.
Then we went to the beach (Manhattan) again. How I so adore the beach. We played some frisbee for a while, and I don’t remember what else.
We then went to a BBQ where Julie knew one of the guys, Ted, from home. He is interning at EA this summer (sooooooo jealous!) and he and his roommates had a house party/bbq thing. It was pretty fun. I met some cool people too. One of the guys is especially cute, but he is just paying attention to N and J. I do not think I am assertive enough or something. I am much too shy. I am trying to break out of it, and I feel like I’m just going backward. Anyway! The bbq was a lot of fun.
Sunday the girls and I went shopping again, but again I found no pants, as we only went into one store. We had lunch from a creperie which was fantastic (I love crepes…love crepes). And we sun tanned on Santa Monica Beach. Then Ted and the super cute EA guy and another girl, who is working at Boeing, joined us there and we walked along the pier. Bob randomly showed up as well (he biked! crazy!) and we had dinner at this Japanese place. Afterward there were tons of street performers and music and such on the Promenade and I finally convinced super cute EA guy to dance with me, but not until N and J had started dancing. You know, that is sort of annoying, because it was my idea to dance in the first place, but I blend too much in the shadows or something. Or people just don’t take me seriously at all. I am not sure what my problem is. But I feel that same thing happening again that happens at home where I just don’t get listened to, where my wants and needs get put aside, where I don’t really matter, and where all the cute guys flock to the other girls. That last one doesn’t fit in with the rest of the list but it still matters. So frustrating. Maybe I’m just not cut out for it.
I know I’m not cut out for this town. Too much traffic, too expensive, I don’t watch many movies; I feel like I’m on a completely different planet. But still, it’s LA and it’s fun for the summer. Especially this whole beach and ocean thing. Tonight Andy, Bob, and I had dinner and just plain relaxed on my beach… it was so nice. It got a little chilly but other than that it was so perfect.
I love the ocean. I want to go sailing.
Maybe that’s what I should be when I grow up.
